I love my family!!!!!

So I have quite a bit to tell you in this post. First of all, I just want to say that I love my family. I grow closer to them each and everyday. I also realize that without family, on earth, we have nothing. I am nothing, without my family. For the last 2 1/2 months my family has been tried in different areas, and we are still strong, and love each other more today than ever before. It's amazing! OK, now that that's out of the way...Karnell was in this huge drum competition held at Guitar Center. For those not in the musical world, that is a very well know music store that sells predominately guitars, of course, keyboards and drums/percussion. Anyway, he entered the competition in Kansas City and didn't win, he didn't even place. He was a little sad, but I believe he knew what to do to make it better for the next time he would enter. This past Wednesday he entered the drum contest along with 7 other drummers. It was pretty intense. The talent varied greatly. I was a really neat experience if you ever get the chance to go. Well, needless to say, Karnell won!!!!!!!!! I just couldn't believe it, I was jumping up and down in excitement. So he gets to compete again on October 3, if he wins there, he will travel to Denver to compete! We are very excited. If he wins the whole competition, I believe he gets endorsements, a car, and some other cool stuff! Don't quote me on that though...I am so proud of him. He sets the bar high for himself, and he amazes me with his talent each and every time. I is a bad drummer! I stand in awe when he plays. When I listen to him, it's as though I can connect and feel what he's playing. I love the sense of closeness. I'm only that close to him when he plays. I mean when he's playing, he's telling a story and his whole being is in it. I connect with that, I understand every note, it's like reading a great, novel, a true page turner! OK, enough of that. If you haven't picked it up by now, I love my husband. I love you baby! OK, here are some pictures my family and some pictures that I took at the drum competition. Enjoy!

Worry and stress are not my middle names!

So I have been having the hardest time trying to not worry and destress my life. Everyday, it seems as though there is something to worry or stress out over. If I didn't know better, you would think it would be best to be naive. They say that knowledge is power...but what kind of power. I think to me, it has taken over my mind. You always hear of the effects that worrying and stress do to the body. I consider myself to be pretty smart and well educated, so why can't I master this? It has haunted me for as long as I can remember. And to add to it, now that I am married, it seems as though I worry and stress even more...AUGGGGGG! I try to keep my life on a consistent schedule, but of course, that never works. What should I do? I know that it's in the Lord's hands, EVERYTHING. I should truly rest in that, but that is something that is so hard for me. That's like asking a carpenter to preform brain surgery, virtually impossible. I know, I know, with God, he makes the impossible- possible. But how do I take that small step, in the right direction, when in my mind I have a huge mountain to tackle. Yes, I could quote scriptures all day long, but what physical action do I need to take. Yes, I know that I need to trust in the Lord with all my heart, and lean not to my own understand. But when that little bit of fear starts to creep in, what should I do... when singing doesn't help, praying doesn't help... reading the Bible doesn't seem to cut it. And on top of all that, I feel alone. Just trying to let you know what's in my head...complex thoughts sometime, but I am trying to be humble and admit that I need help. The first step to recovery is admitting the problem. Give me your comments; I want to know what you think, or your opinion.

A little bit about me...

Even though I have posted a few blogs at this point, I thought that it would be nice if you knew a little bit about me. I know, it's better late than never! Well, I was born and raised in Kansas City, MO. I attended Tri- City Christian school from Kindergarten through my senior year. I went to Longview Community College for about 3 years and transfered to SMSU in Springfield, MO. I met Karnell (my husband) March of 2004, got engaged October 2004, and graduated December 2004. Wow! What a year! After graduating, I moved back to KCMO to be an Assistant Director of a private preschool. Karnell moved to KCMO January 2005. We got married October 1, 2005. I lost my job as an Assistant Director November 2005, and started being a stripper...just kidding! I did lose my job, and I started being a server which I did until June 2007. I decided to go back to school, so we bought a house and moved back to Springfield, MO. Now, I've been in Springfield for about 3 months. I work at Second Baptist Church in the Missions Office, and Karnell works full time at Cheddar's Cafe', and part time playing the drums at Springfield Brewing Company.

I love being active and being around children. Getting married to Karnell, besides asking the Lord in my heart, was one of the best decisions I've ever made. I absolutely love being married to Karnell. He is an absolute joy to have in my life. 2 days are never the same. He genuinely loves me the most that any man could love a woman...and that's a great feeling. Of course we have our ups and downs, but I wouldn't trade them for the world. He's my "favorite", and I'm his "one and only"! I love you baby.

Enough mush...I am very detailed and very much a perfectionist. Children are my heartstrings, it's what I live for. The very essence of my being wants to make children happy. To me, messing with children, is like messing with my passage to heaven. I pray that my passion only grows, and that I can do mighty things for children, Lord willing.

Well, there you have it, me in a nutshell. I am very much a simpleton. Nothing fancy, with bells and whistles. I do want to have a purpose for life and fulfill that purpose with integrity and passion. I want to be a milestone today, to pave the way for children tomorrow. One brick at a time.